The One Thing I Miss About My Pre-Mom Life

I’ve always wanted to be a Mom. It is the only thing I have ever been 100% certain of.

And now, look at me…I’m a Mom! (The Pud is 6 1/2 but the idea that I am a mother still,sometimes, trips me out.)

Kat’s Writer’s Workshop assignment for this week is to write about something that I miss from before I became a Mom.

Sure there are little things I miss – like leisurely Sunday mornings where I could just spend the whole day in bed watching Sopranos box sets if I so chose. Or eating my supper hot. Or not having discussions in public washrooms with my 5 year old about the firmness of bowel movements.

But those are all little, incidental things. And I am keenly aware that when J. and I are in our golden years we will miss all the little so called “inconveniences” that come with parenting young kids.

But there is one thing that I miss from my pre-Mommyhood time.

I miss wondering what my children would be like.

My favourite daydream was imagining my kids. When I was young I would fantasize about their genders and what I would name them. When I met J., I would fantasize about what traits of ours they would inherit and what they would look like. Would they have J.’s pretty blue eyes? Would they be chatty like me? Would they be bookworms? Would they be freespirits?

Now that Paddy and Puddy are *here*, the mystery is solved. I’m Mommy to a chatty, introspective son with my green eyes and his Daddy’s big smile. I’m also Mommy to a cuddly, smiley son with Daddy’s big blue eyes and smile.

I feel a bit like it is Christmas afternoon. My Christmas presents are unwrapped and I love them but the anticipation is gone.

Same thing with Motherhood. I love my boys more than anything but I do miss the “who will be my child” wonderment.

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10 comments on “The One Thing I Miss About My Pre-Mom Life

  1. on September 20, 2012
    Esther says:

    Thats what being pregnant is for! More mystery right there :)

    • natteringnic
      on September 20, 2012
      natteringnic says:

      Bah…you’re not suggesting I also board the train to threesville…are you??! No, no, nopey, no, no. I’ll just live vicariously through you, if that’s OK. :)

  2. on September 14, 2012

    You know, I never honestly thought about this idea before reading your post. I was never one who “knew” I was going to get married and be a mom. I was always happy just being me, making my life, and knew that, if God called me to it, I could be happy as either a wife and mother or a cloistered nun or anything in between. It wasn’t until I met my husband that I knew what I was supposed to do and be. At that point, I think I was just happy to know my vocation and never really wondered beyond that. Now, I love wondering what each baby will be while I’m pregnant, and when they’re born, I love watching to see if they’re anything like what I imagined. Great post!

    • natteringnic
      on September 17, 2012
      natteringnic says:

      Both of my kids were not what we expected – looks or personality wise. Crazy to think about the diverse little people we bring into the world. Thanks for stopping by!

  3. on September 14, 2012
    Classic NYer says:

    To miss wondering what your children would be like… that’s kind of deep.

    Visiting from Mama Kat’s.
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    • natteringnic
      on September 17, 2012
      natteringnic says:

      Whoa. I’ve never been called deep. That’s deep. :)
      Thanks for the visit!

  4. on September 13, 2012

    That was a neat thought. I remember sitting in the hospital just after giving birth and fantasizing that my newborn would walk through the hospital room door as a man. I still remember how I had him pictured. He is nothing like that. Same height. That’s about it. I had him almost blonde with sharp features. He is dark-headed with larger more Mediterranean looks. Too funny. I hadn’t thought about that in a while. He’s 19 now and though still growing up, looks the part of a young man.
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    • natteringnic
      on September 17, 2012
      natteringnic says:

      Paddy looked *nothing* like we expected. We were floored that he looked totally different than his brother…I honestly think we were expecting our boys to be carbon copies or something! Oh 19 – such an exciting time…just a big toe into adulthood. Thanks for clickin’ in!

  5. on September 13, 2012
    Rachel J. says:

    I totally know what you mean! I feel like that will be the main thing holding me back once we decide we’re done having kids…I’ll be like, “Well, what if we had one more? What would he/she be like?” It’s just so fascinating to see how different they are!
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    • natteringnic
      on September 17, 2012
      natteringnic says:

      Right! It is mind boggling to think that a different sperm = a totally different person. Thanks for stopping by!

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